JUST A LITTLE WEARY...

I haven't blogged in while, but things have been hectic for me physically, mentally, financially, & spiritually. I try so hard, but yet fail miserably. I need peace in my life so bad & know what I need to do to get it. I'm holding on to the mustard seed of Faith I have & am praying that it grows substantially. God always provides & I want to start getting my business together, but have a couple negative things going on, & when I say a couple, I mean a couple. I had mad, major negativity before I started making changes & things started happening for the better. I started reading "Eat, Pray, Love" again! I love Elizabeth Gilbert! I won a Massage Chair & it will be here in 2 days! I got a new car because the other one died, but this one is not the business so I will rectify that in the next week. Need reliable transportation for the winter. One day soon, I will have a brand new car, but I have to get my ducks in a row first. My friend called me today screaming, crying, talking really fast! I was able to help her & calm her down. It's amazing how many people lean on me for strength! :) I thank God for the strength He gives me to be able to help, listen, & advise when needed. I have a quiz Monday & I will get an A. I'm tired so later.

IT'S BEEN BANANAS!!!

So many things have been going on, I'm really too tired to type about it right now. I'm watching the end of "I Want to Work for Diddy". Then I have to hit the books. I have an Anatomy midterm next Monday & I will get an A. I write out the notes in question form. While I'm in class, I have an underlining/highlighting method that I use to set up my notes for question form later. I'm gonna read, read, & re-read!!! I didn't have a good day today because I was really tired. I'm tired & weary, but I won't faint. My car quit on me Sunday & I had to get a new one yesterday. I wish I could write more, but I'm totally tired & need to study. I think I'll have another tea tonite. I get this tea from Whole Foods, well actually 3 teas-chamomile, peppermint, & echinecea. If you have trouble sleeping, I suggest it, as it is natural. It's the kind you put in a plastic bag yourself & you'll need a strainer or some of the tea bags that you iron closed. I have to study now...

I WATCH A LOT OF T.V., BUT...

I also learn a lot! I just got a wonderful idea from one of my DVR'd shows! It's for my baby I'm working on & I cannot wait to get this ball rolling!!! It has already started, a slow start, but this is what I prefer in my older age! (I just had a birthday this past Thursday & 36 feels good! My right knee is hurting terribly, but I know that is a due to me being overweight. I'm working on that as we speak! I'm getting organized, planning, & actually following through with what I plan! I am so excited!!! Back to the T.V.- I don't really watch a lot of entertainment & I think I already talked about my T.V. addiction! But I watch more informative shows. I have to study so my mind keeps drifting away...I can't focus!!! I really just wanted to document a great idea.

NEW & EXCITING...

I thought I had a blog saved in my drafts, but I don't...so here's a new one. I don't put a lot of pressure on myself to do much because I'm busy, but I'm promising myself to do 1 blog a week, I haven't decided on a day, but 2 if I can. I'm in school & working 2 jobs, trying to make it better for me & my child. I only have one class this semester & I took on a second pt job & was offered a supervisor's position within a week. I like blogging because it's like I have someone to talk to who listens & I have an outlet. I want to be an author one day, but have to do a couple things before I can focus on that. I am so excited about the new things going on in my life because when I made changes for the better, doors just started opening up. I get lonely sometimes, but I'd rather deal with that than getting dissapointed repetitively. I made a promise to myself to not deal with anyone who is unavailable. I have one dude who was texting me M-F, I didn't hear from him on the weekends, he made two dates & didn't follow through with either, so I decided I was done with that situation, especially since he convienently ommitted the fact that he was in a relationship with the mother of his two children. I just don't have the time anymore. Anywho, I start my new position October 1st, M-F 8-4, I am soooo excited. I've been wanting a M-F for the longest! I'm thanking God for all his blessings!!!

INSOMNIA WINS...AGAIN!!!

It's 6:01 A.M. & I have been up since 3:45 A.M.!!! I've been doing better with my sleeping since I've made some changes for the better in my life. I guess I'm excited because 1. I start a new pt job today & 2. School resumes today!!! I am gone kick Anatomy in it's ass this time!!!

It's getting cold out-I'll be so glad when it snows so my allergies can calm down.

I've been thinking a lot about my past & how it's affected my progress thus far. I'm working through some things, tryna sort them out so that I can progress.

I have to email Wal-Mart for several reasons. Number one tho is the nasty ass bathrooms!!! Like how do you make billions of Americans hard earned dollars & not only make them wait in line because for whatever reason (I think the main reason is telling people they have to have open availability) there are NEVER enough cashiers, but when they want to use the bathroom, it's nasty as all get out. I shouldn't have to go get Clorox Anti-bacterial wipes to sanitize the toilet before I put the paper seat on there!!! JUST GROSS!!!

TNT!!! :)

COLD TURKEY!!! HAH!!!

I should know by now that you can't just go cold turkey with anything. Everything in life is a process. I had a horrible night the first night I tried to go cold turkey. I had the jitters all day from the green tea & maybe the iced tea too (the only other thing I had to drink was water), was waking up in the middle of the night (like 4 times to pee), & couldn't fall back asleep after each BR break. I digress!!! I will make changes slowly, but surely, but I cannot & will not make myself try to stop everything all @ once. I don't eat horribly & don't intake that much soda, but I need to incorporate exercise into my daily routine quickly!!! I will try to start with the 30 minutes 3 times a day deal soon. Seems like everytime I say I'm gonna start, the weather doesn't cooperate with me!!! I will get it together. TNT...

FEELING ANXIOUS...

right now because I have started my "no soda & junk food for a month" today. My birthday is in 24 days & I wanna lose just 5 lbs. to prove to myself that I can. I don't know exactly how much I weigh, but I will go later & get one of those scales that tells you how fat you really are! lol I'm not expecting anything unrealistic. Just 5 lbs. in about a month. I'm researching green tea because I have taken a liking to it. I was gonna cut out sugar totally & I can, but I won't go totally hard. Splenda is good, but too much of it makes me nauseous. I have become accustomed to Wal-Mart Lite (Wal-Mart's version of Crystal Lite) & drinking water so I shouldn't have a problem with liquids. I kinda weaned myself off of candy & ate my last bit of chips liek 2 days ago. I had an ice cream cone last night & have some leftover. I will give it to my daughter though. :( Not that I mind, but it's kind of hard having something here & know I can't have it. I fought myself hard not to drink a root beer @ work. I had green tea, cereal, greens w/smoked turkey & cornbread. I don't know what to have for a snack beside fruit & I need to go to the grocery store & get groceries for the week. I have decided to plan meals & budget because I'm preparing myself for bigger things & I need to start somewhere. So why not with the groceries. My bills are all shook up, but that's a whole 'nother blog!!! I will begin to tackle them soon as I start another pt job next week. I also have to start school next week as well. I have become really good with planning so let the games begin. I didn't know the green tea has so much caffeine in it though!!! I may have to switch to decaf. My fingers are so jittery on my keyboard. I started making youtube videos under my same name here, so if you happen to be reading this, look me up & comment if you'd like, better yet subscribe if you'd like!!! Thanks in advance!!! I wrote my daughter's father a letter on myspace yesterday. I had some things on my mind bothering me concerning him. My delivery may have not been the best, but I was respectful as I could be considering the situation. I'm gonna take a nap because I want to excercise, but it's too hot right now. I'm gonna get me some water too to kill that "I want to eat something" feeling. It's not as hard as I thought it would be though. I cannot wait to get into real estate!!! (I've been watching TLC all day.) I need to clean something, but I'll dream about what while I'm resting. Later...