FEELING ANXIOUS...

right now because I have started my "no soda & junk food for a month" today. My birthday is in 24 days & I wanna lose just 5 lbs. to prove to myself that I can. I don't know exactly how much I weigh, but I will go later & get one of those scales that tells you how fat you really are! lol I'm not expecting anything unrealistic. Just 5 lbs. in about a month. I'm researching green tea because I have taken a liking to it. I was gonna cut out sugar totally & I can, but I won't go totally hard. Splenda is good, but too much of it makes me nauseous. I have become accustomed to Wal-Mart Lite (Wal-Mart's version of Crystal Lite) & drinking water so I shouldn't have a problem with liquids. I kinda weaned myself off of candy & ate my last bit of chips liek 2 days ago. I had an ice cream cone last night & have some leftover. I will give it to my daughter though. :( Not that I mind, but it's kind of hard having something here & know I can't have it. I fought myself hard not to drink a root beer @ work. I had green tea, cereal, greens w/smoked turkey & cornbread. I don't know what to have for a snack beside fruit & I need to go to the grocery store & get groceries for the week. I have decided to plan meals & budget because I'm preparing myself for bigger things & I need to start somewhere. So why not with the groceries. My bills are all shook up, but that's a whole 'nother blog!!! I will begin to tackle them soon as I start another pt job next week. I also have to start school next week as well. I have become really good with planning so let the games begin. I didn't know the green tea has so much caffeine in it though!!! I may have to switch to decaf. My fingers are so jittery on my keyboard. I started making youtube videos under my same name here, so if you happen to be reading this, look me up & comment if you'd like, better yet subscribe if you'd like!!! Thanks in advance!!! I wrote my daughter's father a letter on myspace yesterday. I had some things on my mind bothering me concerning him. My delivery may have not been the best, but I was respectful as I could be considering the situation. I'm gonna take a nap because I want to excercise, but it's too hot right now. I'm gonna get me some water too to kill that "I want to eat something" feeling. It's not as hard as I thought it would be though. I cannot wait to get into real estate!!! (I've been watching TLC all day.) I need to clean something, but I'll dream about what while I'm resting. Later...